More and more good discussions have been coming up about how God works through us in astonishing ways, more specifically through our non christ like experiences.

When I was younger I used to party a lot and was apart of a lot of things that I do not allow to be in my life anymore, such as drinking, girls, language, distasteful jokes, etc.  I’ve gone through series of phases in my life where I was a christian during those experiences, to choosing to no longer take part in those activities but still wanting to, to seeing my friends and others live that life and saying to myself “Man, they are totally missing out and they don’t even know it!”.  Others may look at people who party till they puke and smoke and sleep around and will judge, disrespect or totally miss the fact that they ARE our brothers and sisters and they simply are lost.

I feel God has given me those experiences so that I have a deep desire in my heart to lead them to the voice of truth and love.  I could have easily gotten into deep trouble when I was living that life, like being arrested, injured, addicted, or getting myself into a situation of getting someone pregnant or worse!  Yet I was protected through it all!  God protected me so that I can be the man I am today, freed with the only truth and love that satisfies that emptiness I, and so many others, searched for.  We search for them in all the wrong places only to find ourselves to continue to search in what seems to be a never ending labyrinth.

Does anyone else feel this way?  That God may have allowed us to experience what we did and protected us so that we can have a deep longing to later look at others and desire to show them how they can finally fill that emptiness?

I pray; God give us the strength and control to be in this world but not of it, to act upon the desires in our hearts to search for those who are lost and lead them to you!  Give me the understanding and help me be humble in that I am NOT better than those who are lost.

Phew… been a long time since my last real post! guess life is relentlessly busy.

The last couple of weeks have been quite the crazy, not sure if any of you knew, a college happening is finally starting to take place at my church! and it couldn’t be any better of a time for me. I’ve already decided that I am wanting to give as much time / energy / resources to this ministry as I possibly can, I couldn’t be more excited. How often do you wish that you could be a part of the beginning of something, or wish that you could become a huge part in a community.

That’s the exactly how I have been feeling lately, I remember back in the day when I used to be active in my church, remembered how it felt to always have something to look forward to every week, and how many awesome people I met and shared experiences. And this time I can be the start of a huge thing in this area, give those with no hope, nothing to look forward to, no one exciting to look forward to meet, I realized that I can be a part of the spark in their lives that gives them their life back, the meaning of it and the love of it. I didn’t really realize why I did it back in high school not even sure if I though of it, but now that I’ve grown I can’t help but think, how many people are out there bored with life, bored with who they know, missing that key element of existance, missing God!

So every sunday night after the 5th at 5 (the 5th church service @5 at windsor : church) the college group are hanging out —- somewhere. Doesn’t matter where, and it’s not going to be the same every week. We’re just going to hang out and do life together. I can’t wait! till the next get together (which is my bday), just because not only am I growing with others, but this opens a portal for me to finally meet people my own age (Impossible feet at my situation it often seems).

God Rocks!