Ever thought how nice it would be to have a one line question to ask a close friend on a calm rainy day?  Not like we have any calm rainy days around here in saint louis -  Maybe for the fact to stimulate your mind or sounds smart or the big one – to grow in your relationship with that other person by discussing deeper topics other than how’s work?  I long for this every day and wanted to share something with you.

In the last month I’ve had numerous conversations with good friends, this time instigated by yours truly, about something that has been on my mind, a lot lately.  Let’s say it simply intrigues me to the ultimate and back.  Like a package of oreos, i can’t let a package of oreos just sit there and go untouched, and most the time, I have to eat the entire package!  So this intrigues me like a new package of oreos…

Notable: This would be most effective if you only read and processed one section at a time (they’re short and few).  I know it would be very tempting and easy to read the entire post or none of it but I challenge you to take a moment or a few moments throughout the next week and read bits of this post.  See what may happens.

I hope this post will be as intriguing to you as 20 hopeful oreos!  I would even go as far as recommend you to read the first section and walk away from this post so you can think about it and come back for the next section.

Let Us Begin! – I would really appreciate an email or text or comment if you wish about this cause I’m crazy curious about it.

Section 1

do not read section 2 until you’ve fully thought about this.  It may come as a shock to you for how short and initially comical it may seem to you:

If you were present and some random guy / girl walked up to your mother and punched her out, what would you do?

[ truly think about what you would do]

Section 2

Now that you’ve thought about it a bit and hopefully have an answer, do you think that’s right?  Meaning do you think it’s humane or based upon social standard or is it the culturally common thing to do?

Section 3

What do you think Jesus would do?  Was your answer anywhere close to what Jesus would do?  If not then why, if so then why did you not answer with a more cultural answer and why do you think the cultural answer, or in other words, the immediate instinctive answer is so barbaric?

There are SO many things and ideas that can spawn off of where we are now, when do you think anger is an OK emotion, do you think it’s right to allow someone else to control your emotions, if God created anger for a purpose what is that purpose and how do we control ourselves to using anger for only what it is designed for?  I could write pages of things we could talk spawning from where we are on a conversation topic level!

I encourage you to bring this up to a close friend.  When discussing this, it IS very important to pause and talk about each section naturally like it’s not a process.  Reason I say close friend is because I think this is something that could open up a very deep conversation to allow quite a bit of growth between two people.  It allows a lot of inward thinking and reflection which I think is a great way to grow.  One of my deep desires is to grow in my relationships with other people through Christ and his word.  Need I say more?  I love how simple this is too!

There are aspects of our lives of which we constantly hide from others.  Hide because we are afraid, ashamed, embarrassed or something else.

I realized that with a lot of people I only express my surface self.  With other people, closer friends, I let go of a few vulnerabilities by showing a deeper side of this matt simpson.  But how deep do I show?  It amazes me that when it comes down to it, God is the only one who truly knows who I am, knows every detail of my very being!

Why do we hide these vulnerabilities?  What do we cling on to and lock up deep inside and never share?  Are we even aware of some of the things we hide of our true selves because we’ve kept them locked up for so long?  Having realized this I pray and I hope that I can say goodbye to fear and embarrassment and be my true self with EVERYONE I meet.  This world I live in, the culture, media, people, skews my mind into thinking I should only express certain things, I should only wear certain clothes, I should only speak a certain way about certain things.  Who AM I?  I know who I think I am but is there more to me?  Have I lost touch and forgotten something I’ve not expressed in so long?

I’m curious if anyone else has thought about this or what you think of this now that you’ve read it.  I’m not concerned, simply intrigued.  I’m also not disapointed in who I am, far from it, God has given me courage and guidance to live free of a lot of cages.

side note / fyi: saw the new transformers movie tonight and forget whatever reviews you read, it is a 5 star guarentee! awesome movie, much better than the first and I recommend it for all.  It does have more language in it and a little bit of sexual connotations but they are not untasteful or the like.  I thoroughly enjoyed it   Best movie I’ve seen this year for sure.

I was driving home today and there was a huge storm all around me, lightning everywhere, very intense lightning, but it was not raining or windy around me.  It reminded me of where I am at in life right now, this insane storm around me changing every second of the day, yet I still had strength, courage and guidance.  God has put his hand in my life and I have seen it more magnified in the past week and a half then ever.  It’s amazing how safe we are in his hands and how trust is so very hard sometimes, yet has such an overwhelming return.  God is awesome!

Lately I’ve been feeling like things have been crashing down all around me.  Yet, at the same time I feel I have been settling it all in better position than they were before, protected.  Life moves so very fast that once you stop and look at everything going on around you, you realize that this is beyond you, something bigger is in the works and helping you through it all.

In the last week and a half I was in an accident where my car was totaled, I’ve made an offer on my first house, I’ve been given the opportunity to fly up to Penn State for a 3rd interview on site for a fantastic job and I’ve met a girl beyond my dreams.  All of this while I was sick and feeling physically terrible.

No one was sent to the hospital from the accident, thank God.  I don’t have a bruise on my body, not even an ache from the accident, yet looking at my car it seems I should be paralyzed or not even breathing.  Insurance is working beautifully and my loan is taken care of.  This has created an opportunity to buy a better car for less than my previous loan balance.

My housing search and pre approval went flawlessly and I found a house I am absolutely in love with, perfect location, perfect potential, perfect timing.

If I wrote a profile of the company I would like to work for, the company for this job has hit all points.  If I get this job, I would be programming from home for an increase in pay, for a company I absolutely love in a great team environment.

I thank God for protecting me and giving me strength to push forward through all this, and knowing he has plan for all of this makes me feel at peace.

Been a while!

I am now the president of Envion Studios LLC!

What is Envion Studios you may ask? Well it’s a design company specializing in web solutions.

Who’s apart of it? Me (president, code monkey), Justin Arendt (vice president, designer), Tyler Hammond (designer), and Alex Walchli (sales dog).

Because of this new venture I’ve been pretty dang busy. Have had a lot of things going through my mind, lot of things to go over, set up, put in motion and it’s the most exciting thing i’ve ever done. It’s everything I’ve wanted to do, I think i’ve wanted to do this since I was 5 when I looked at my dad and told him some day I am going to own my own semi trucks and have them take all of my stuff around the world and that I was also going to own a skyscraper. This is the beginning of it all, and it couldn’t be moving any smoother.

If you or anyone you know needs a unique look on the website, we would love to build a website for you/them, just contact me and we’ll put things in motion.

If you lead us to a job that follows through we will give you a referal of up to $100!!

Phew… been a long time since my last real post! guess life is relentlessly busy.

The last couple of weeks have been quite the crazy, not sure if any of you knew, a college happening is finally starting to take place at my church! and it couldn’t be any better of a time for me. I’ve already decided that I am wanting to give as much time / energy / resources to this ministry as I possibly can, I couldn’t be more excited. How often do you wish that you could be a part of the beginning of something, or wish that you could become a huge part in a community.

That’s the exactly how I have been feeling lately, I remember back in the day when I used to be active in my church, remembered how it felt to always have something to look forward to every week, and how many awesome people I met and shared experiences. And this time I can be the start of a huge thing in this area, give those with no hope, nothing to look forward to, no one exciting to look forward to meet, I realized that I can be a part of the spark in their lives that gives them their life back, the meaning of it and the love of it. I didn’t really realize why I did it back in high school not even sure if I though of it, but now that I’ve grown I can’t help but think, how many people are out there bored with life, bored with who they know, missing that key element of existance, missing God!

So every sunday night after the 5th at 5 (the 5th church service @5 at windsor : church) the college group are hanging out —- somewhere. Doesn’t matter where, and it’s not going to be the same every week. We’re just going to hang out and do life together. I can’t wait! till the next get together (which is my bday), just because not only am I growing with others, but this opens a portal for me to finally meet people my own age (Impossible feet at my situation it often seems).

God Rocks!