So tonight just happens to be one of those nights where I cannot sleep at all! I have been in my bed for about 1 and half hours trying to sleep and… nothing.

So – My church is entering a very intriguing topic – the song of solomon.

how did the world we live in become so corrupt of the essence of love? When did we lose touch and become so far away from the truth and meaning and practice? I hope that I can overcome the ‘normal’ of today’s society when it comes down to it and follow my heart and my morals; and what is right and not what the world tells me is right. I weap for the world but am joyful in the world all at the same time. I believe we live in a real time / current / conscious paradox.

Yes, I added a geek category to my blog! wonder why it took this long lol. It’s very strange that, no matter how much I hated high school class and the mental drain the teachers impailed from me and the useless sessions in most classes, I do miss learning, and I am school sick

Really, all I miss is learning math – which is weird because that’s most people’s least favorite subject, but now mine! I loved calculus, so I decided to start learning calc again.

I was thinking one day – “I wonder what the highest level of math course there is” - So I started googling and found this site:

http://www.math.ufl.edu/courses/toc-big.html

It gave me a pretty good idea, how amazing is it that there is so much knowledge out there for you to learn! I can’t wait to start learning more and taking in as much as I can. I hate having potential to be better at something, or to know more of something, and to not do anything about it.

that is all

Phew… been a long time since my last real post! guess life is relentlessly busy.

The last couple of weeks have been quite the crazy, not sure if any of you knew, a college happening is finally starting to take place at my church! and it couldn’t be any better of a time for me. I’ve already decided that I am wanting to give as much time / energy / resources to this ministry as I possibly can, I couldn’t be more excited. How often do you wish that you could be a part of the beginning of something, or wish that you could become a huge part in a community.

That’s the exactly how I have been feeling lately, I remember back in the day when I used to be active in my church, remembered how it felt to always have something to look forward to every week, and how many awesome people I met and shared experiences. And this time I can be the start of a huge thing in this area, give those with no hope, nothing to look forward to, no one exciting to look forward to meet, I realized that I can be a part of the spark in their lives that gives them their life back, the meaning of it and the love of it. I didn’t really realize why I did it back in high school not even sure if I though of it, but now that I’ve grown I can’t help but think, how many people are out there bored with life, bored with who they know, missing that key element of existance, missing God!

So every sunday night after the 5th at 5 (the 5th church service @5 at windsor : church) the college group are hanging out —- somewhere. Doesn’t matter where, and it’s not going to be the same every week. We’re just going to hang out and do life together. I can’t wait! till the next get together (which is my bday), just because not only am I growing with others, but this opens a portal for me to finally meet people my own age (Impossible feet at my situation it often seems).

God Rocks!